Task 2d- Inquiry

What in your daily practice gets you really enthusiastic to find out more about? Who do you admire who also works with what makes you enthusiastic?

My passion has always being in the performing arts industry, whether thats performing in shows, teaching dance/musical theatre or working backstage for theatre companies. Working for warner you receive all aspects of an entertainment industry... The teaching as a dance captain, the entertainment for the guests including the performance in shows. Working as a dance captain I find it fascinating how different people learn choreography or lyrics... before taking an interest in the theories of reflection I didn't understand why someone couldn't pick something up that I was teaching, or why something was more difficult for others, I really admire the way the team approach rehersals and aren't afraid to speak their mind about how they are feeling, the team as a whole are alwasy motivated and enthusiastic to learn and without them I couldn't do my job. It has been their efforts that has helped me understand the way each of them like to be told feedback and learn things.
What gets you angry or makes you sad? Who do you admire who shares your feelings or has found a way to work around the sadness or anger?

It can make me angry at times when people bring in their negativity to work, the last thing I want after a bad day is negative thoughts or the opposing, if I'd had a good day I dont want people coming in and ruining that for me, sometimes when I share my thoughts about the negativity more negativity is created, a lot of this is explained in recent journal entries because of my late mood at work with the stress we have. It also makes me angry that when I try to share this anger or feelings with other friends who aren't in the industry they look down on me and think I am being dramatic over what they call 'a drop out subject'. The arts has sometimes always been perceived as a very easy job, it is only until you are in that position you realise it isn't. 
In all aspects I respect everyone who goes against peoples thoughts about the arts and keeps that positive attitude that is much needed in this industry... for example movie stars that were probably all through school told to be academic and have now become the most succesful.

What do you love about what you do? Who do you admire who also seems to love this or is an example of what you love?

I love seeing guest satisfaction after an activity or performance and love receiving that feedback, without the guests we couldn't do what we do, who would we have to tell us how good we had been? Who would be the motivation for what we do? All of what I do has the guests interest at heart, on my days off I even love to socialise with the guests round the hotel because I love them to see the passion I have for them and what I do. Here at Warner's it's very easy to create close relationships with regular guests and it is these close connections that make me love what I do.

What do you feel you don’t understand? Who do you admire who does not seem to understand it or who has found a way of making not understanding beautiful or has asked the same question as you?

Currently I am in the situation of not understanding where I am heading with my career, at college we were always told to have the motivation to keep going but if I don't know where I am going it is hard to understand this.... I am wanting to progress in the teaching route of primary schools but am I any use to them having only a performing background? Also currently at work I am feeling in the place of not understanding where I belong in the team, where do I have the right to speak up and say I'm not happy with something? Is this down to my manager? I feel this was something never explained to me and my understanding of the role is still not completely there with it being fairly new. As a team we always talk and it crops up about future employment and everyone seems to have a very open attitude about it, luckily here we are giving the opportunity of permanent contracts and I think I am pushing myself to fast with what am I doing next when I haven't even finished here yet with what I want to achieve. 

How do you decide the appropriate ethical response in a given situation? To what extent are disciplinary responses different to that you might expect more generally in society?

Working as a dance captain it is really hard to decipher the line between your team being your friends and your team being your product, especially as we all live on site away from families and friends it is apparent that team obviously have to have a social life or we couldn't survive, however when it comes down to work it is hard to hide the love you have for your friends and the responsibilities I have for making a good show (product). Discipline is huge in rehersals but at the same time being careful of the response from those you consider close friends. Done the right way friendships can be kept, done the wrong way it can end you being the 'bad guy'. Generally in a job you would have seperate friendships to those you have at work... here we dont have that. In one way Warner's is its own society.  

The main questions I took from this task that I want to look more into is How an individual like myself with a performance background can do well in a primary school? How will children learn in an academic environment with the influence of my background? Where are the differences from teaching adults choreography as a dance captain to teaching children academics... the transition of the jobs I am going from and to is massive!